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    ckf14m  49, Female, Texas, USA - First entry!
04
Nov 2007
7:18 PM EDT
   

Equally yoke

After the sermon today I question my relationship with my boyfriend of nine years. What is it that we have in common. I don't even think that there is a committment on my part any more, because I look at the relationship that my friends have with their husbands and I don't have that with him, because I won't lie to people and stay this is my husband. It is what it is. I am ready to go to the next level with someone so I can feel whole.
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    smb  50, Female, Wyoming, USA - 129 entries
04
Nov 2007
3:09 AM MST
   

Halloween

Took J and O to the Church for the Halloween party there, Oct 31st. It was fun but Jett was so upset that he didn't get to go "real" trick or treating! He was a skunk. Mom made the costume and it was GREAT! He looked SO cute! He won the costume contest for his age. Oakley was a soccer player at school and a bug catcher at the church. He was also very cute but not as "into" his costumes as J.

CN and I went to Jay and Sans for their Halloween party (Sat. Nov. 3rd). We left the boys at my dad's (AGH! and she was there! I really shouldn't "settle" for him to babysit when she is around! Still a sore subject!) anyway, we dressed up as the "dead bride and groom" I wore my wedding dress! and he wore an old Jacket of DB's! He wasn't too happy about that! We painted our faces white and black circles under our eyes. Looked pretty good but probably jinxed us with the "dead" married couple! We didn't have too much to drink but had a pretty enjoyable time.

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    berries7cinnamon  38, Female, Singapore - 20 entries
04
Nov 2007
5:13 AM EDT
   

My last day of work was last Friday. Towards the end of the day, it was crazy because I had to run up and down searching for people to do staff clearance for me. The IT guy wasn't being a great help when he wasn't willing to sign the clearance form for me and said that I should have get this done earlier. Just how earlier could I have get it done when he came over at 4:40 to my PC?

I went around on my last day snapping pictures with people whom I got to know. Unfortunately, yours truly forgot to insert the SD card into the camera and left it at home so I could only take 7 pictures. So I only took it with people who were worthwhile.

Veron gave me an ornament cat; it was a laughing cat. I was grinning from ear to ear when I unwrapped it and I was really thankful.

Yang Li gave me a pair of earrings of small silver apples. One of it is hollow, another was filled with 'diamonds'.

The 3 uncles treated me to my farewell lunch that Wednesday, the day after our farewell lunch with our departments.
During that whole time, our dear boss didn't even bother to strike a conversation with us and didn't even really look our way. Not that I care, but it just goes to show what kind of person she really is.

Actually, my last day should be on 2nd November. However, my dear boss said that I could leave on the 26th October since she's already found my replacement and also in consideration that I hadn't taken any leave throughout my stay in the company. So she decided to let me have a short break before I start working. =.= That's a nice way to put it.

Lai Lin asked if I would miss them a few days before my last day. I told her I couldn't answer her question since I hadn't left that place yet.
Now, I don't miss them. I do wonder how are they doing, but not like I'm dying to know. They were all nice people and I thank them for their inexhausible amount of patience. I guess the bond just isn't deep enough.
Though I have gotten used to the lifestyle, I don't miss it either. I would still wake up at 8 sometimes even 7:30.
I feel more relaxed and happier because I have more time to do what I want to do.

So, What have I done during my 1 week break...
Last Saturday: Went to Jimmy's birthday party. I didn't enjoy myself at all because there were a whole bunch of people whom I didn't know and I didn't bother to join in the conversation. They were Jimmy's secondary school friends and they already knew one another. So I had to initiate to join in the conversation which I couldn't be bothered. They were nice people but my mind just wouldn't flow. Does it matter? We wont' see one other again and even if we do, we might not remember one another.
Poly people came much later. I didn't stay for long because I was going to have dinner with Judith. I could have cancelled on her but there was not reason for me to stay at the party.
I already knew this would happen and I still decided to go to his party was because he's a good friend.
I realised that... there are lots of things I don't know about Jimmy. Maybe because I didn't ask, and he's the one who's always asking about me.
Well, we've chatted online many times, and each time we chatted for a long time. However, there were lots of things that my poly mates knew about him and I don't. If it's because I didn't ask, I wish he would tell me. Sometimes in a relationship, you'll tell another party without being ask.
It seems that he's always the one who's giving, I feel... untrusted.
Oh well, we hardly talked these days ever since started working.
Sunday: Went for service and joined Judith's family for lunch, then went to Serangoon to view their new house. They are moving next year. Her dad drove through KPE so that he can drop us off at town. I respect those people who build this underground expressway. It's huge and it's VERY long. Tough.
We went shopping and went back to her apartment (current) to have dinner because I was too poor to dine outside. My salary's on hold.
While having dinner, we watched this movie, "Forrest Gump" starring Tom Hanks. He's always in these interesting/meaningful movies. This is a very old movie because the Tom Hanks I saw in that movie was quite young.
Monday: Went for interview and headed for manga rental shop after that. Meet up with mom to see doctor. I got home in the afternoon and was dead tired. So I took a nap and got woken up by mom because of a phone call - they were going to hire me and I start work tomorrow.

Tuesday: Went to sign letter of appointment and try out the new uniform. Had lunch and dinner with the 3 uncles and Yang Li. They brought their spouses except for one,and I left so awkward. But it's their treat for both meals.

Wednesday & Thursday: Stayed at home and play games, read comics, magazine.

Friday: Went to DVD/VCD rental shop with Judith. It's so expensive to rent a movie - $7 each! Never again will I ever RENT this on my own. Judith's family is member so they have already pre-paid for the rental fees; Judith didn't pay a single cent. I felt a tad cheated.
We watched Dirty Dancing, and Music and Lyrics. Nice movies. Had lunch and desert at her apartment.
I rented Dirty Dancing 2 and Big Fish.
Dirty Dancing isn't dirty.

Saturday: Stayed at home and play games. Went to peace center,�then had dinner with my cousin and niece.
My niece LOVES (that's an understatement) pink.

Today: Stayed at home and play games. Watch High School Musical.
I dunno what to say about the singing - the lead actress's singing. Is that her original singing voice? Can she really sing?
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    jesssie  33, Female, Canada - 69 entries
04
Nov 2007
2:39 PM EST
   

I was so excited to be with you.. wish you understoo that, honestly. I had something to look forward to on the weekends.. and now its just like a normal weekend. Everything happens so quickly -- one minute, we're on your couch telling eachother how much we love eachother and the next minute, im sitting alone crying because you hurt me.& you promised me you never would! you said you'd never hurt me. well why dont you just put a load of bullshit on a plate, and serve it to me! why dont you just do that? oh well you basically already did. you fucking idiot, not you. ME, im the fucking idiot. Im so easily gullible, i believe everything that comes out of his mouth because i trust him. because he was my best friend before he was a boyfriend. he was there for me all the time, he was there for me when my other boyfriend broke my heart. i dont get into relationships unless i think they are worthy. i thought you were worthy. i thoughtttttttt you were worth it. i really did. butnow im alone and im crying and im wishing it could have worked but it didnt. and you blame it on me because you know i will take the blame. cause im nice! im anice girl who doesnt like to get hurt but you hurt me anyways and you make it hurt so bad too. but why? because what did i ever do to you but CARE enough to care at all?? i loved you. i really did because i loved you enough to be comfortable with you and be happy and talk to you on the phone for hours and waste cell phone minutes because it meant i got to hear you speak. obsessive i know it sounds tht way.. im not obsessed. im just hurt. i wish i could have hurrt you instead but at the same time i dont, becuase i love you enough to hope that you would NEVER feel this way. i tried, and id keep trying if you let me but you hardly gave us a chance.. thanks.
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    strongmutha  54, Female, Virginia, USA - 5 entries
04
Nov 2007
1:52 PM EDT
   

hello

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    dee23  54, Female, United Kingdom - 170 entries
04
Nov 2007
2:03 PM GMT
   

i feel so stupid and you know why it's because my son has a girl friend and that even sounds stupid. but realy it's becuase he is growuing up fast and i feel like he's slipping away from me almost like my job is almost done and it's time to let go but i dont want to becuase he's still my baby to me always will be he's only 14 and i think he's far too young to have a girlfriend theres plenty time for that when he's older but as always whatever we say they just try harder to do the opposite i'm sure i am not the only parent to feel like this but it's hard when you only have one kid because they become the center of your world .i know i have to let him have his own life but he's just too young for all this stuff yet .and i want him to my self a while longer .

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    mkxXx  50, Female, New Hampshire, USA - First entry!
03
Nov 2007
6:12 AM EDT
   

today

well to day i had a fun day i went out with ash and we brought some sweets and then came back to hers and had lunch then we started to play a game.
then ash had to go out and i am sitting here being my usual self and i am having fun with my cuz round later i am going to see fireworks then we are going to have a curry..



I NO I AM GOING TO HAVE A GREAT TIME XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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    shirleyxu  54, Female, China - 301 entries
02
Nov 2007
8:12 PM EST
   

朋友圈

敦敦每天放学会跟他的'国际联队'朋友们踢一个小时的足球,这些十岁小男孩们来自世界各个角落,意大利,澳大利亚,英国,苏联和日本,有着不同的肤色,抄着不同腔调的英语。看着他们一起玩,很有趣。我惊喜地发现,在他们这个圈子里混的规矩很值得大人们借鉴,首先是要大度,懂得接受别人的背景,不管你来自那个国度,不管你英文讲得怎样,不管你球踢得如何,他们在乎的是你想不想跟我玩这个动机,这种动机会从他们眼神交流和肢体语言中你会看到。主动走近对方,对视一分钟,搞定。一旦进入朋友圈,这些远离老家的伙伴,正患严重'朋友饥渴症'的小男子汉们大有相见恨晚的感觉,孩子们之间的信任和默契一两天就能建立。玩的过程中,每个人都有发言权,可行的建议很快会得到伙伴们的认可,玩什么,怎么玩,一个决定一般在三秒钟通过,大家不会在鸡毛蒜皮的细节上扯皮,他们很尊重每天上帝给的这60分钟宝贵光阴,在他们看来,朋友的存在就是上天的恩赐,跟伙伴们共享的时间就是快乐。一旦承诺约会的时间地点,就要守约。不高兴的事情不多,一旦发生,只要不是大错,都能原谅,在第二天见面前保证忘掉不愉快。他们这些难得的素质都围绕着''这个至高无上的目的。你要玩就不能对别人太挑剔,不守约,不原谅别人明天就没人跟你玩了。孩子们在游戏中学习交友的规则和做人的原则。实际上,大人们之间的交往也奉行同样的游戏规则,只不过大人们喜欢端着,在每个项目上都花太多的时间,也都做得不太好。

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    xxEbonyxx  34, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 52 entries
02
Nov 2007
3:46 PM EDT
   

god is up to his work again! i am sooo happy that i have let god take control of my life now and i dont have to stress about everything in my life, life is too short to worry about things that are not in your control. sometimes you need to just let things happen how they are ment to happen and just trust that things will turn out ok. i have learned alot about myself in the past year and i am happy to say that i think that i have grown alot, some people amy say that they really dont think that i changed all that much to them but i can see it in myself and if others cant see it then that is on them, i haev learned that you can tworry about what others think of you and what others precieve you as because the only thing that matters is that you see yourself as a good person and you love youself as you are. im am becoming a much happier person and i am looking forward to everythiugn that is going to come in my life in the next couple of years or months or just even days!

well we will see what happens!
till next time!

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    shirleyxu  54, Female, China - 301 entries
02
Nov 2007
6:13 PM EST
   

初品杭帮菜

到了杭州,一定要品尝地道的'杭帮菜',老朋友带我们去了一家叫'卜家野鱼馆'的地方菜馆,馆面不大,但生意很红火, 各种鱼都拥有非同一般的名字,我们相中了 '白昭君',鱼的烧法也另有一套,第二天又经不住这'野性'的诱惑进了卜家的另一间分店,这回叫了清蒸钩鱼,味道鲜嫩,价钱不贵。西湖醋鱼不能不尝,暗红的浇头的酸甜配比恰到好处,一大条鱼几分钟内下肚也不觉得腻。'片川'是那种吃一次就忘不了的小吃,吃第一口后,你就会对眼前这碗白绿相间的菜肉汤肃然起敬,自动端正态度,认真地,一口一口地品尝。我叫了一碗片川,没想到我家的两个男人,见异思迁地抛弃自己叫的小吃,抢着跟我分享这碗'片川'。真就像相'对象'一样,有的人运气好,相对了,有的人开始觉得自己的选择不错,但跟别人一比,就觉得自己的'对相'没味道,死活想把别人的'对象'搞到手。

女人的生活也就像一道菜,必须同时具有色香味。光好看不行,光空有其名也不行,要自己活得有品位,有味道才算真正活得精彩。

若把成都的川菜比做泼辣的麻辣大婶子,不敢正面看她,但走后老想回头,杭帮菜算是个乖巧的酸甜小媳妇,看一眼不够,临走还想再拉拉她的小手。

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